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Thursday was a rough day for me. The eve of the new moon brought high emotions. It began on my morning walk with my old faithful dog Jupiter. He was having a tough time getting home. I think he may have had a little stroke or maybe it just got too hot. I did get out early enough but with the slow old dog pace and many rolls in the grass at the park, it was getting late. So I was late for my pottery class. The instructor is a much older woman who comes across as a sweetie but can turn on a dime when she see a student doing something wrong. (she doesn't really teach, just waits around doing her projects till she see a student doing something wrong :)
So the tears of frog came in, I don't cry very often, but made a few trips to the car that day and wailed. Finally I just packed it in and went home.
I read Melissa's blog about alligator and decided it was a good idea to lay low with just my eyes above the surface. Actually I went home cranked up the AC and didn't open the door again till morning.
I woke up very early Friday. The air was fresh and cool outside so I opened all the doors and windows to enjoy the breeze. I enjoyed a short meditation and pulled up a you tube video with the Dali Lama called Peace through Compassion.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fHJG41Q2VjY
I was sitting in the dark totally engrossed when I hear a big commotion in my bedroom. Jupiter was sleeping on the floor beside me so of course I thought someone was coming through the window. Upon investigation I discovered a cute little baby owl perched on the curtain rod. He got a little excited and flew around the room perching on picture frames then back to the curtain rod. I think it wore him out, as he landed on the floor and I was able to gently cover him with a towel and bring him outside.
In the book Medicine Cards owl stands for deception. As I read further it says " you are being asked to use your powers of keen, silent observation to intuit some life situation. Owl is befriending you and aiding you to see the total truth."
Good advice! I was a shy silent child and after many years of working with the public I grew out of it. Now at times I think I talk to much and "catch myself" interrupting when others are talking. I need to stop and listen more...(see Bryn's blog)
So that was my lesson from owl.
After releasing owl I returned inside only to find a giant spider crossing my kitchen floor. She was harder to catch than owl :)
The lessons continue!

On the full moon call of April 28 Melissa mentioned having some difficulties with writing, although she said she had worked through it and now enjoys it. I often encounter some of the same issues mentioned on the call. Of course we all know about writers block or not being in the flow. But mine is more about computer block. Sitting in front of a blank screen feels to me like a dreaded chore.
I didn't acquire a computer until my daughter Kellie was in the third grade. (She claimed she would not have an edge in school without one.) I would get in front of it read a couple of emailed jokes and wonder what the big deal was.
Several years later Kellie and I began college at the same time. Every essay I wrote needed to be typed, double spaced, with correct grammar and spelling. I found the computer invaluable. But still I could not get the message to flow from my thoughts to the blank screen. So I wrote every paper longhand and used a computer as a word processor. I continue to use that method to this day. Although I can now put my thoughts on paper, edit and enhance as I type. (Oh I'm still a 4 fingered typist.)
I never really understood why I could not "get it" as I saw my classmates just tapping away as I scribbled on my notebook.
I recently met a writer named Janet Connor. She is out promoting her book titled Writing Down Your Soul. She is a popular speaker at the Unity Church in FL. The Unity daily reader "Daily Word" published her article "How to have a conservation with God." She advised for "soul writing" is to "Write by hand. (The computer keeps you in conscious mind and you want to get out of your stress filled conscious mind.)"
Finally I more fully understood my block.
I'm all for being conscious but the stress filled part I could live with out.
So as I continue my journey I will keep pen and paper in hand.

I really love my St. Germaine's Energy Essence Spray, I spray it in my shower before bathing and then use it as a full body spray afterwards. I am calmer, mornings work better and many aspects of my physical being are showing significant improvement. In recent years, I have had some mobility issues. Since using the spray unsolicited comments have been made about how much better I am moving. I've also noticed an improved quality in my sleep. This spray with its clean and fresh astringent scent has been added to my list of things for which to be grateful.

I wanted to express my gratitude to a special soul that often brought a smile to my face, joy to my heart, and reminded me to play. Thank you Sonny.

Wild Boar or Javelina as he is called here in the southwest showed up in my life a few days ago. It had already been a tough day. I woke up to find a landscaper cutting down the only tree (a large mesquite) in front of my apartment. This tree shaded my patio from the blistering sun, held my bird feeders and was the only thing about my apt. that I loved. Later in the day while driving the speed limit through a residential neighborhood a man began tailgating me beeping and gesturing me to get out of the way. I pulled over and let him pass. As it turns out I knew him as I walk my dog in that neighborhood. I thought he was one of the good guys! I was so disappointed I broke down in tears. I have not cried in years, although I must admit it was long overdue and did feel good. I think the tears were really for the tree, my acquaintance was just the catalyst. I then attended a 12 step meeting where everyone who spoke cried and went home feeling grateful that my problems were not so serious. That was before I found a three inch cockroach in my kitchen cabinet. I tossed and turned for hours at 2 a.m. my dog is barking his head off. I get up thinking someone is breaking into a car. I open the patio door to witness four javelina chomping my tomato plants behind the patio fence. Well the dog was so excited he knocked over a large houseplant, scattering wet dirt and shards of pottery all over the carpet. So there I am on the patio in the middle of the night yelling and throwing pottery at hairy pigs. They didn't budge. The next day, after cleaning my carpet, I checked into the totem animals of the week and found wild boar staring me in the face. I just had to laugh. I still have no idea why they showed up at my door.

Hello and Flow,
It's important to not push the river ,but let the river carry you down it's course.Surrender seems like it would be a good thing and it is, but sometimes it can be the hardest state for a person to allow themselves to be in.To give over your "weight " to that which offers it's support to you. Sometimes we covet the pain we are in and are resitant to give it up,to give it over so that it can be taken down the river, to be washed away transmuted and /or tramsformed..The curious thing is that alot of the seemingly easiest things we could do for ourselves seems to be the hardest for us initiate, until we learn that true living is about simplicity in all things,cutting the "fat " out of our lives and living by the essential ingredients whcih are all that is necessary. Anyway that's all I have to say now .Nothing big but nothing little as well.Love.

Foot Reflexology is a healing art with it's origins in ancient India,China and other cultures.The feet are mini-maps of the entire body system,the body in microcosm.Foot Reflxology helps to condition,replenish and and de-stress the entire system.

After the full moon channeling, I set my intention to have dreams giving me illumination into my future creative path. I ended up dreaming about death and birth. Here's what I experienced:

Dream 1: As an invisible observer, I see a male actor taking off his costume. As he is doing this, someone comes in and kills him and his wife. (end)